Monday, September 5, 2011
Giving It All
While this addresses the issue of giving (financially) something different, something more convicting, something I really needed to hear, was heavily laid on my heart. Jesus said, "this poor widow has given more than all the rest of them. For they have given a tiny part of their surplus, but she, poor as she is, has given everything she has." Without a doubt, I had given "everything I had" when it came to voicing my thoughts, stating my opinions, defiantly choosing what I would or would not do, and making demands of Lee. I succeed at walking in the flesh. Grade: A++
Did I empty myself of grace? No. Love? No. Compassion? No. Forgiveness? No. I wanted my needs me before I gave anything in return. Unlike the widow who gave everything, laying her needs aside and trusting that God would provide, I chose selfishness. I chose me. Above Lee, but ultimately above God.
Once again, I find myself at the feet of my all-forgiving, totally gracious, never stop loving me Savior, pleading for His help. Asking for more of the Spirt to be evident in my life. Fighting for freedom.